The Toe was formerly known as Hombre Sardinas untill he became a heavy seeker for enlightenment. Reading stuff and watching on youtube people like Mooji, Papaji, Ramana Maharshi, Osho, Tony Parsons, Rupert Spira, Benjamin Smythe, Brendan Smith, Puppetji, Wiggleji and other shit.
He tried for years to discover that wiggling of his toe happened by itself and that The TOe wasn't involved in the wiggling. Who am I? What is this I? Who is the doer? The whole doer thing troubled his mind untill he couldn't do it anymore. Seeking was starting to crumble down like a cookie.
Then he met people on Paltalk. And the story goes..... He became enlightened. FUck that shit! He decided to let go and surrender. That didn't do the trick.
Then he read AJahn Brahm's book in which he explained the concept of Nibbana. NON of my BUSINESS! Thought, mind, sun, sensations, sounds, what other people say...non of my fucking BUSINESS. A deeper letting go arose....detachment from objective reality.
There is still no clear recognition of what I truelly am. SOme paltalkers say 'you are awareness'. The yellow butterfly in my dreams said 'you are allready enligthened'.
I now know that it is more about letting go and not being cuaght up in the thoughts. You are not the thoughts. Thought make a story about you which is not you. I love you, especially if you are enlightened.
Bye, I need to wiggle my Dutch-Spanish toe. Wiggle along! Untill your head hits the wall of wiggling.